As you know the last part of the year I focused on myself because I was going through a break up and needed to learn to love and find myself. With that came standing up for what “I” needed and that has and is hard for me. So this year I will not only continue that but my new intentions. I ended 2023 exactly how I wanted to and needed to for “Me”.
When I talk to my clients or counselor it feels good to know that I made it through what could have been so much more harder if I was to just keep doing and living the way I was. I have an amazing group of friends and have been doing so many more new things that I would have never, and man that feels good. The next is to slowly open myself up to possibly meeting someone new and that scares me. I also will be working on boundaries. Protecting my peace no matter the situation meaning place or people.
someoneInvesting in people that actually invest back in me will be something new and different. I have given so much of myself and my time to people and things that either never gave back or was not consistent, and I just can’t anymore. Working on my health also means being more protective of what I allow in and give out. Now I am not someone that expects anything back, but I have been just giving that to anyone, so. need to be more cautions of who I allow that with.
I have been a bucket for far too many that just fill me up with their stuff. Now please know I am not someone that ask for much if anything and if you know me, like actually know me you will know what I need or want that will make that balance equal in life. I will not be putting up with peoples crap anymore and carry more than what they are even will to carry for theirselves, meaning not taking accountability for their own things in their life but always playing victim will not be something I cater any longer. I have been through things but know that I have consciously made the choice to allow things and made the choice to be there. Now I am not saying I will be judging people and their situations and I am not one to be harsh about things but I will be a lot more ” we make our own choices” kid of person. I will use my word with love and will always think before I speak.
cannotI am not and never will be someone that will just look at a situation one sided, but I will be someone that listens first and think about how I should respond knowing that what ever happens from that point on is and will be on them just like I know I have the same right. I have carried so much of other peoples emotions and challenges that it affects me and that I cannot and will not do anymore. If something needs to change and I have control over it I will change it.
So for 2024 I will be investing in MYSELF first and those who invest back into me. Thank you to those who have showed me that that is important and that it is ok to say no and yes when I need and want to. I will be expressing how I feel more good and bad and of course always with love . I will be telling the people in my life I love and appreciate them more because nothing is guaranteed. I will be always working myself in a reality state because I am the one in control of my life, thoughts, and actions.
I am excited for what is to come and thankful for all I have in people and things.
Consistently inconsistent 