Happy

I want to start with a question: what does happy look like to you? Now take a second and think about it because this question can take you a couple of different ways. Some might read it and think about what happy looks like to them, what happy looks like when you look at others, or even what happy consists of. The definition of happy is: feeling or showing pleasure or contentment.

Happy is a self-feeling and cannot be measured by someone else. Being and feeling happy is something we show, share, and expose to others and even ourselves. Now, people, even myself at times, can come off happy but be battling things no one knows of. That, right there in itself, makes me think that happy is really only a feeling and it is personal.

Lately, when I have been talking to people or clients they say to me, “ I love seeing and hearing you so happy.” And if I can be honest what I am talking about makes me completely happy. Some of them know my past and what I have been through and some don’t. Also recently some of my friends that also don’t know my past have made comments not directly to me but to my girlfriend how happy I look and that she makes me. I would like to tell you, I am.

I feel happy and that is all that matters and my friends see it and love it for me. For that I am grateful. I want to be surrounded by people that want me to “feel” happiness and I want that for them. Nothing else should matter. I have enough people in my life that have their opinions on my lifestyle and don’t agree with how I live it, but at the end of the day all that matters is how I feel.

Life is extremely short, and for so long I didn’t always live my life like that, but more like I had all the time in the world. I don’t, and at this age and time in my life, I want to do and live in a way that makes me happy. Everyone can and will be a critic, and yes, I have been guilty of being one, not only to myself but to others. I am done with that. If you aren’t in danger, live your life, because no matter what I say, you are still going to. How we navigate through it is what matters.

I am not the same person I was a year ago, six months, or even a week ago. I am constantly growing, changing, modifying, and it is just like this blog, will be “consistently inconsistent”. I want to love, support, cheer on, be a shoulder, be an ear, and be there with open arms always, no matter what, to the people in my life. I would love the same, but all I can worry about is how I show up.

There are a lot of things I don’t and probably won’t always understand about a lot in life. Some I will and some I won’t have control over, but the way others live their lives will not be one I judge or question. If they are happy and living life to their fullest, that’s all I want for them.

Happy is a feeling, and we are all responsible for our own happiness. So if you aren’t happy, all you can do is start by making changes. Only you know what those are, will be, and how it will look for you. I just hope that you are and will be surrounded by people that are there to support you in any way you need.