I hear now, more often than ever, that we start to become like the 5 people we surround ourselves with. Are the people around you so hurt from their past that they haven’t and can’t see that they are projecting? Or do you have people in your life that are on a similar path, have similar views, and that strive to be the best version of themselves?

I could sit here and tell you who I am, but you will make your own assumptions and come to your own conclusions reading what I write. By writing we (the writer) allow your mind to make it’s own decision as what to trust and believe. We allow you to be able to question and think what you want about us, our stories and feelings.

When we put ourselves out there whether online or in person, we become vulnerable to the world. People we are not directly intimate with will never really know us. We will have some that will and can relate, some that will be disgusted and judge, and some that want so bad to just feel some sort of connection to something or to someone.

I am not, or at least try not to be one who does things to receive things. I was raised to genuinely care, and give if I can without expecting anything back. I don’t pick and choose who I give that to. I mean, I guess I do, because there are so many that are in need, that I tend to give to those I have crossed paths with or that are currently in my life. What I give is not always tangible.

If I sat here and analyzed why every person came in and out of my life, I would go crazy. I truly believe that there are three types of friends in our life: friends for a reason, friends for a season, and friends for a lifetime. I have had many different kinds of relationships, some long and short term, some good and bad, and even some ending in a lesson, but I was always taught to forgive and still care. It is who I am, and I get tired of being questioned by those close to me. How do I justify that my motives are not wrong? How can I be me and make those close to me feel secure? Does anyone else get tired of being judged? Try to remember this quote when you’re looking at how other people have always lived their life: ” Your perception of them is a reflection of you; their reaction to you is an awareness of them.”

I know who I am. I always know my intentions. I know how I was raised, and what the consequences are by my choices in life. How do I find balance? This conversation can branch off in so many different ways, but I am not wanting to get into more than I need other than trying to find balance with trust.

How do we break through without allowing people decide who we are? I mean honestly, we can’t really control that. Perception is created internally, no matter what happens externally. If we occupy our life with people that always question who and how we are, maybe we have to think, do they belong there? By surrounding ourselves with positive things and people in our daily, it will always allow for us to be who we are.

I would love to know what you think, and if there are any situations that have come up where you can relate. I would love to hear from you. Please remember these are just my thoughts and feelings. How would life be if we lived our lives remembering that other peoples opinions of us don’t matter?